If you’ve read the post below, then you probably knew something like this was coming. There was change in the wind, but I didn’t know it until a couple of days ago.
So how did it come to pass that I suddenly decided not to go back to PHC, and have surprised my family and disappointed a few of my friends…all in the space of a couple of days?
There’s not much to the story, really. I had everything packed, and was planning to arrive in Virginia by Wednesday at the latest. Ahead of me was a semester of managing the women’s soccer team, editing The Soundboard, soaking up more and more about journalism, life, God…and enjoying close friends. I was starting to load the car and realized I couldn’t go. I couldn’t go back to Virginia.
I’ve struggled with the back-East culture, I’ll be honest. But I had a gut feeling I just needed to throw it all to God. He’s in charge, right?
To all my friends and family, I hope you are watching closely. I don’t want you to blink and miss seeing something God does. I’m actually expecting him to move now at any moment. My heart is God’s, you see. And as flawed as it is, some of the desires in it originated with Him. Those are the things I am looking toward now…
I feel awkward, at this moment in time, and uncertain of what the heck I am doing. Just watch. See if God can make a silk purse out of a sow’s ear.
I would absolutely love to hear from any of you, so please talk to me. You have not seen the last of me yet.
Via con Dios…and so will I.
Windsome Belle
Filly, born April 30, 2008
8 comments:
Cheyenne I am so glad you are hearing from God! You are in my prayers! Much Love! ~ Alicia
Chey,
You will be missed. But it is so important to follow God. More important than anything! I will keep in touch. You do the same…
Like my future tattoo says: Let go, Let God. Someone once told me that I was behaving like Abraham and trying to second guess what God wanted me to do, and putting myself in places God wanted me to be, and I was repeatedly WRONG. So, whenever I'm in a place where I don't know what to do, I don't do anything, God will handle it and it may not be where I might want to go or on my timeframe, but he won't give you more than you can handle. Makes me wish I felt as tough as he seems to think I am. When one door closes, a window opens. We're praying for you and we love you and we don't care what school you go to, just be happy where you're at.
I pray that all is well with you. I cannot form ideas and write them like you (that is your gift, after all), so I would rather have had the opportunity to speak face to face (that is MY, gift). As I've ruminated (ranch term) over your decision, I have come to the conclusion that perhaps you did not make the best choice, but not for the reasons that you might think. And I think I came to that conclusion after standing away from my emotional response. But I won't (and can't) debate this with you for the dye is cast. I really want to be wrong. But if what God was trying to teach you at PHC is still part of His game plan for you, then He will again put you in a similar situation. I know how that works, for I have had to retrace many steps in my life.
But in the mean time, I want you to know that you are loved and missed. You are so gifted and I thank God for the opportunity to have known you. Keep in touch--I really want to know what God is up to in your life. Joan
I sent a post but as I have never sent anything but email, I'm not sure it even went through. I am technology retarted. Did you get the post?
Joan
Your writing & photos say it all. You are right where God wants you. Moving forward? . . . one step, listen, step again.
Your writing & photos say it all. You are right where God wants you. Moving on? . . . one step, listen, step again.
Your writing & photos say it all. You are right where God wants you. Moving on? . . . one step, listen, step again.
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